I am ashamed.
And every time I see friends posting running pictures, mileage reports, and talking about cool stuff like black toenails, I feel a tinge of nostalgia and envy.
What have I been up to?
Working and being a mom.
Health/weight wise, I did lose my pregnancy weight and got back down to size 6. And that was before the Thanksgiving and Christmas season.
However, somehow, I did a little too much hovering over cakes and pies and I am back up again. :(
I still hurt at weird non-running places when I do my run/walk on the treadmill. I have a doctor's appointment this week and I hope she will give me some answers.
Over the past few months, I have been exercising, in spurts. I will do pretty good for a few days and then, I start hurting and so, I backed off. And then it takes me a WHOLE lot to get started all over again. This month, my current mileage is 6.1 miles. That sucks. But it is 6 miles I wouldn't have at all, if I hadn't got up and ran/walked. I am critical of myself, and yet, I am not critical. Oh, I am so contradicting.
I am going to take one day at a time. Seriously just focus on one day. I can always encourage myself with the good days, but when I have a bad day, it is just it. I will have my ONE bad day and move on to the next and make it a better one.
ONE. DAY. AT. A. TIME.
And I am going to need your help to keep me going.
In other news,
My sweet baby will be 15 months in 2 days.
He loves birds.
He has a bunch of teeth.
He loves to eat.
He gives the best hugs and kisses.
And I never knew love like this.